Unscripted

It’s hard sleeping these days. I don’t want to get addicted to pills so I try music instead. I need a job to relieve me from this financial burden Atleast to a large extent.  I tried with the music again, but seems like my head too is now used to the sound.  The sleep don’t come at all.  Or are my problems too heavy for the music to carry me to sleep?  Well, lemme read my bible and pray to God. He will help relieve my pain and help me sleep. So I opened my bible to the book of Revelations.... God might just reveal something to me anyway.  I read for about 5 mins. I can’t say I remember what really happened after that. All I can say for Sure is God works wonders. He showed me a new cure for my insomnia. I woke up by 8:09am after a sound sleep on my bible while trying to read it.  Now I have to read my bible each day 🙂 .  Who said miracles don’t happen?!! Don’t answer that. 

EVE I There was a loud bang. The flower vase fell and broke.   No! It wasn’t the kids playing that broke it...It was my head.  He had hit my head to the wall and I staggered and lost balance and fell on the vase.  You know what I did this time?  He said I didn’t cook the right food.  Well, why didn’t he just tell me what he wanted to eat before leaving home in the morning?  It’s been this way, one day or the other. He blames me for everything and yet I didn’t really do anything. One day I didn’t clean his shoe, another day it could be I didn’t answer him immediately he called.  That was two days ago, he had returned from work and I just got back from bringing the kids back from school. I was making food for them. And then he stormed into the kitchen and slapped me for not having answered him.  But how could I have heard you and not answered ? What if these beatings and slaps are beginning to affect my hearing.  ...

He has been staring at me for 10 mins straight now. (Is he really looking at me, or am I just making it up in my head?)   (Oh no! This dude is actually walking towards me. Well, maybe it’s the girl dancing behind me. Lemme sip my drink and act cool.  Or no! Lemme start a chat with James.... James is too busy trying to woo a girl. Okay I’ll walk to the bar and see if he follows). Hey!? (Did he just say hey to me? Am I wearing makeup or a short dress? I think I’ve had too much to drink tonight so I’m probably imagining things).  Hey, I’m Oliver. Care for a drink?  (Hold on! he is really talking to me 😳 , Let me act cool, wouldn’t want to cause a scene but then someone should really tell this dude to back off).  Common, don’t be shy. Let’s dance!  (Okay this dude is actually crazy, but then I Atleast have to tell him I don’t swing that way).  No man, I’m not interested. And then I walked to the bathroom. I was nervous a...

Anniversary is a day to remember a special event. Anniversaries are times to relish moments spent together.  You don’t have to be married to acknowledge an anniversary. And if you are not in a relationship yet, well start now to practice your speeches. So this is me, composing a message to my lover in future.  Today we celebrate a relationship full of love and happiness.  Every passing year with you is worth it. Today I beg for forgiveness for all the times I will offend you in future. Even if my pride doesn’t let me say it. Know that I’m sorry.  May we blossom like the flower and we may also have enough money to spend vacations together to explore God’s creation. May we continue to find happiness in each other. Happy anniversary to the most amazing guy I know! ❤️ Dear lover, I hope you find this note and read. May you see that my heart is true.

Common and not common. But what is suicide?  This refers to the taking of ones own life. Absurd isn’t it? Well no one was ever born with suicidal tendencies. This ideation develops with time from certain events that may have occurred. For some, it might be from huge financial loss, rejection, poverty, emotional problems, abuse, failure at school, etc.  Sometime this year, in the months before now, it was a news common to us. Usually the victims died by sniper ingestion. It may seem to have reduced now but in reality, suicide is grossly underreported.  Why do I say so?  Two days ago, my neighbor on my street woke us with a loud cry, turns out she had lost her daughter (Drug overdose). Why? Well the young girl is just 16; I’m sure you can likely guess why. (If your guess isn’t correct, I’ll probably tell you myself). Well my point is, I’m pretty sure you didnt hear of this in the news.    Or about the young man who has been sufferi...

Sorry don’t cut it! What you said hurt! I can’t possibly forgive this . Atleast those were his words.  Way to go girl! My apologies weren’t enough. I asked what could be done to substitute. No reply!  This Is frustrating. No doubt.  I resorted to google... (it has all answers right?) yeah... turns out google had no solution for me.  What to do?  Again, Reason said: know when to take a bow. He said to wait it out!  That seems like the next option.  Meanwhile if you know him.... tell him i’ Wait for his call  Crazy huh?!  Whatever you do, keep that love alive and burning. Because eventually, these situations make the feelings die off. I pray his love stays true.

The desire for acceptance and recognition has caused a crumpling of the heart. We had a big fight, two days ago, honestly It was my fault.  I lay on my bed, eyes to the ceiling; looking at my phone intermittently, hoping that he calls.  But then Reason asks me: is it really worth it. Isn’t it about time to move on? What if he keep interchanging between making you happy and sad.  Honestly I have never doubted his loyalty. What I have doubted a couple of times is, his affection, influenced by his cold reactions in certain situations .... I guess I just might never know if I stay.  So I decide to let a coin decide for me;  One side to stay and wait for him to get over his anger and sort it out,  The other side, to leave and move on with my life.  I promise to abide by the decision of this coin no matter how hard it seems. So help me God.  So I threw the coin high up and watched it fall.  Guess what the coin said t...